You Deserve Nice Things

When I was going my eating disorder, I would not buy things for myself.

I just couldn’t.

I felt that I didn’t deserve it.

I felt that I should save my money for something.

I had an amazing Psychiatrist who saw me as a woman, not as someone with an eating disorder.

He challenged me; he really did.

He was an answer to prayer, he really was.

I had been discharged from hospital from another Psychiatrist.

I went to my GP and she said to me whoever calls back you will just have to go with them.

I remember walking over to the local shopping centre and praying for this Doctor.

When I came back my doctor said that Dr___________ had called and I had an appointment the next day at 9.00 am.

Now I need to let you know that this Doctor was not taking over any new patients and his books where closed.

I had an appointment with him the next day at 9.00 am.

What I liked about him was that he saw me as me, not a woman with an eating disorder.

He valued me and invested in me.

One of the things that he said to me was-

I wanted to buy some shoes and I didn’t, he said to me you need to buy the shoes this is your prescription.

Wow!

How amazing was he and his words?

He gave me the permission that I couldn’t give myself.

He invested in me and challenged me.

I am so grateful for this Doctor who made such a difference in my life.

He was such an important person in my recovery.

Beautiful one you deserve nice thing, you really do.

What are you going to buy for yourself this week?

I would love to hear from you.

Let’s encourage one another.

Recovery Journal

Today I found one of my journals that I had written about my journey with an eating disorder.

The journal was the time that I spent in Melbourne with the Bronte Foundation.

There is something about keeping a journal and realising how far you have come and what you have achieved.

It is rare and it is honest.

It captures the moment

It is difficult to read and it brings up so much emotion, it takes me back to that time and what was going on for me.

I am encouraged by it though, I really am.

I know that nothing in our lives our wasted.

Nothing that we go through is ever wasted.

I am so grateful for the amazing staff at the Bronte Foundation, I really am.

There were so caring, kind and supportive.

They were so important in my recovery.

I love how I had sessions with the counsellor, the dietician and with doing worldly challenges.

I am so grateful how they invested in my journey and where so real.

It was also lovely to meet Bronte.

I was also so blessed to receive free accommodation from someone that said to Jan, if someone needs a place to stay, they are welcomed here.

The place was lovely, it had heated floors (which is really important in Melbourne) and Foxtel.  

It was so nice to know that I didn’t have to worry about paying for accommodation while I was receiving treatment.

Sometimes you need to step outside of your comfort zone to see who is there to support you and encourage you.

I am so grateful for the staff at Bronte Foundation you have impacted me and blessed me.

I am forever grateful for all that you have done.

Thank you

Yesterday I shared on my blog about an interview that I did for Recovered Living, it was about my journey with an eating disorder.

I am very grateful for Recovered Living and for the opportunity.

I really am.

I shared my journey and then I had the thought of, oh my goodness what have I done?

Should I have shared this?

What will people think?

Have I done the right thing?

I knew that when I was going through my eating disorder that I wanted to hear from someone that had recovered.

This was really important to me.

In the morning I woke up and thought, no this is the right thing to do.

I reflected on what I had shared.

I prayed and pressed into what God says about me.

God says I am a daughter of the king, I am loved, I am anointed, I am blessed, I am saved, I am valued, I am worthy.

I thought people need to hear that recovery is possible.

People need to know that everyone has a story.

I believe that.

We all have something that we can share to others.

I value stories, I value when people share their stories and their testimonies.

Be brave share you story.

Be brave and encourage one another.

We all have a story.

We all have a story that can impact someone.

I would love to hear from you.

I was so blessed to be interviewed by Recovered Voices last year about my journey with having an eating disorder.

My story has been featured this May and part two will be featured this month in June.

I will share part two soon.

I am so passionate about giving back and making a difference.

It also takes courage, it takes being vulnerable.

This is a vulnerable post for me.

It really is.

I am going to be brave and will share my journey.

When I was going through my journey I really wanted to hear from someone that had recovered and was living a full life.

I am so grateful for my journey and for all the amazing people that where involved.

I really am.

I am here if you need anything.