When You Are Forced to Rest

Today I am forced to rest, I am on school holidays.

I don’t know about you but I find it difficult to rest to just sit in the moment.

I find it difficult to just relax.

I really do.

It has taken me a long time to realise that it is okay to just sit and be in the moment.

I have had to learn this on purpose.

I have always been an on-the-go women.

Today I find myself day 3 in a moon boot, I have bruised my foot and needed to rest.

I am required to rest.

The Doctor has recommended me to rest.

Now I am a person who is on the go, who lives life to the full and pushes herself to be all she can.

Today I am required to take it easy, I am required to just rest, I am required to allow myself to heal.

Why do we find it so difficult to rest?

Why is it that we need permission to rest?

Why do we feel guilty when we just sit and rest?

Resting and looking after ourselves is self-care.

Self-care is really important and we need to invest in it, we really do.

Today I am challenged to remind myself that I am an important woman and that I deserve to rest.

What are you reminding yourself about today?

What do you need to do for yourself today?

I would love to hear from you.

You are worthy, valued and loved.

You really are.

Let’s be kind to ourselves.

We have got this.

The situation needed a breakthrough, the situation needed a God intervention, the situation needed healing and the situation needed hope.

I sat waiting in the Urgent Care wondering if I had broken a bone in my left foot.

You see a few nights ago I awkwardly fell back onto my left foot, I iced it at the time and just thought it would be okay.

I had my youngest niece staying with me for a few days and I really did want to worry her about it.

I wanted to enjoy the time that I had with her.

Today I decided I really needed to go and see what I had done to my foot.

So, I went to Urgent Care and waited in the waiting room, I was ushed to a cubicle where I waited for the Doctor.

I decided that I would write on my phone about what was going on for me at that time.

My Thoughts at that moment

I wrote on my notes in my phone- the situation needed a miracle Lord.

I am praying for no broken bones-30 September 2021.

I wrote I am praying for healing bones mended, everything back into place.

I want to be walking and running in the freedom of Jesus.

No weapon formed against me shall prosper.

I am the daughter of the King.

I am praying that the answer is-healing no broken bones. Praise God.

The Doctor

The Doctor asked what had happened I explained and I said it is just bruised.

The Doctor said it is very bruised.

The Doctor send me to have an x-ray and then I went back to the cubicle to wait.

I felt like it took ages, it wasn’t really.

I prayed, I decreed.

The Doctor came back and said there is nothing broken, it is just soft tissue damage.

Praise God.

The Doctor said that I would need to wear a moon boot for the next 6 to 10 days or until the swelling subsides.

Grateful Moments

My Grateful moments are-

• It is not broken
• It is my left foot and I can still drive
• It is school holidays so I can rest
• Urgent Care was such a blessing
• I have a moon boot
• I have access to medical care
• A God who hears and cares
• Prayer

Today I am just going to rest and relax.

We have had such an amazing amount of rain in Perth the last few days.

Which is so good for our environment, it really is.

This week we have school holidays here in Perth, Western Australia.

I have had my youngest niece staying with me for the past few days.

Yesterday I said to her let’s go down to the creek and see what is happening there.

We walked to the creek and the creek was overflowing.

It was so lovely to see.

We decided to have a stick race.

We chose our sticks and launched them of the bridge.

We watched them flow down the creek.

My niece was like I think that are sinking.

We had so much fun following them.

I ended up falling over on my knees slipping on the mud.

We just laughed so much.

We then got two more sticks and launched them off the bridge again.

We ran and followed them to see who would win.

It was so much fun.

We decided to visit my sister who lives near me.

On the way my niece decided to jump in puddles.

Oh, my goodness how much fun is it to jump in puddles.

She had so much fun.

Yes, her shoes were wet they really were.

The joy on her face was priceless.

This is about creating memories.

We, did have so much fun.

I love creating memories.

I really do.

When was the last time you experience childhood wonder?

When was the last time that you let go of the what if?

When was the last time you jumped in puddles?

Embrace fun.

You Deserve Nice Things

When I was going my eating disorder, I would not buy things for myself.

I just couldn’t.

I felt that I didn’t deserve it.

I felt that I should save my money for something.

I had an amazing Psychiatrist who saw me as a woman, not as someone with an eating disorder.

He challenged me; he really did.

He was an answer to prayer, he really was.

I had been discharged from hospital from another Psychiatrist.

I went to my GP and she said to me whoever calls back you will just have to go with them.

I remember walking over to the local shopping centre and praying for this Doctor.

When I came back my doctor said that Dr___________ had called and I had an appointment the next day at 9.00 am.

Now I need to let you know that this Doctor was not taking over any new patients and his books where closed.

I had an appointment with him the next day at 9.00 am.

What I liked about him was that he saw me as me, not a woman with an eating disorder.

He valued me and invested in me.

One of the things that he said to me was-

I wanted to buy some shoes and I didn’t, he said to me you need to buy the shoes this is your prescription.

Wow!

How amazing was he and his words?

He gave me the permission that I couldn’t give myself.

He invested in me and challenged me.

I am so grateful for this Doctor who made such a difference in my life.

He was such an important person in my recovery.

Beautiful one you deserve nice thing, you really do.

What are you going to buy for yourself this week?

I would love to hear from you.

Let’s encourage one another.

Recovery Journal

Today I found one of my journals that I had written about my journey with an eating disorder.

The journal was the time that I spent in Melbourne with the Bronte Foundation.

There is something about keeping a journal and realising how far you have come and what you have achieved.

It is rare and it is honest.

It captures the moment

It is difficult to read and it brings up so much emotion, it takes me back to that time and what was going on for me.

I am encouraged by it though, I really am.

I know that nothing in our lives our wasted.

Nothing that we go through is ever wasted.

I am so grateful for the amazing staff at the Bronte Foundation, I really am.

There were so caring, kind and supportive.

They were so important in my recovery.

I love how I had sessions with the counsellor, the dietician and with doing worldly challenges.

I am so grateful how they invested in my journey and where so real.

It was also lovely to meet Bronte.

I was also so blessed to receive free accommodation from someone that said to Jan, if someone needs a place to stay, they are welcomed here.

The place was lovely, it had heated floors (which is really important in Melbourne) and Foxtel.  

It was so nice to know that I didn’t have to worry about paying for accommodation while I was receiving treatment.

Sometimes you need to step outside of your comfort zone to see who is there to support you and encourage you.

I am so grateful for the staff at Bronte Foundation you have impacted me and blessed me.

I am forever grateful for all that you have done.

Thank you

Yesterday I shared on my blog about an interview that I did for Recovered Living, it was about my journey with an eating disorder.

I am very grateful for Recovered Living and for the opportunity.

I really am.

I shared my journey and then I had the thought of, oh my goodness what have I done?

Should I have shared this?

What will people think?

Have I done the right thing?

I knew that when I was going through my eating disorder that I wanted to hear from someone that had recovered.

This was really important to me.

In the morning I woke up and thought, no this is the right thing to do.

I reflected on what I had shared.

I prayed and pressed into what God says about me.

God says I am a daughter of the king, I am loved, I am anointed, I am blessed, I am saved, I am valued, I am worthy.

I thought people need to hear that recovery is possible.

People need to know that everyone has a story.

I believe that.

We all have something that we can share to others.

I value stories, I value when people share their stories and their testimonies.

Be brave share you story.

Be brave and encourage one another.

We all have a story.

We all have a story that can impact someone.

I would love to hear from you.

I was so blessed to be interviewed by Recovered Voices last year about my journey with having an eating disorder.

My story has been featured this May and part two will be featured this month in June.

I will share part two soon.

I am so passionate about giving back and making a difference.

It also takes courage, it takes being vulnerable.

This is a vulnerable post for me.

It really is.

I am going to be brave and will share my journey.

When I was going through my journey I really wanted to hear from someone that had recovered and was living a full life.

I am so grateful for my journey and for all the amazing people that where involved.

I really am.

I am here if you need anything.

Today I have been thinking about being an encourager.

I have a Girl’s Group at one of my schools and today this is what we focused on.

We focused on encouraging words.

We looked at the word encourage.

We looked at what does it mean.

We looked at words of encouragement.

We shared with each other when we have encouraged others.

We shared with each other when someone has encouraged us and what that felt like.

We wrote down words that can encourage others.

We wrote down encouraging words in our journals and we wrote down who we were going to encourage this week.

We also encouraged each other.

We shared in our circle.

Words are powerful, they really are.

I am passionate about encouraging others, I really am.

We can make a difference in people’s lives about how we speak to them.

We can make a difference in others by being an encourager.

We can impact others in how we speak to them and about them.

Yes, words are powerful and words make a difference.

Who are you going to encourage this week?

What is it going to look like?

I would love to hear from you.

Let’s share what we do this week.

Let’s encourage one another.

You are amazing.

Yes, you are.

Be an encourager.

Each morning I read the YouVersion bible study, it is a really great app.

I love how they structure it and you are able to hear from amazing women and men of God. They are from around the world and I love how they speak into our lives.

They have amazing prayers that you can pray.

I also read my Spirit-Filled Woman’s Devotional Bible.

One of the amazing Bible’s that I own.

My Bible today is looking a little bit worn and torn, they say that this is a good sign.

I agree with this.

I am happy that my bible looks a bit worn and torn.

I really am.

A bit like my life.

It represents my adventure with God.

He is there for me.

He is always there for me.

He never leaves me or forsakes me.

Today they spoke about Psalm 37:4 which I love.

Psalm 37:4 says-

Delight yourself also in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

When you read this scripture what does it say to you?

What does it mean to you?

I am grateful that when I pray to Him and express my desires that He hears me.

He really does.

What is your desire that you need to express to Him today?

Can you journal about it and then see how God answers you?

How exciting it this?

Be encouraged beautiful, brave warrior I believe in you and He believes in you.

Happy Mother’s Day to all the Mum’s, I hope that you have the most wonderful day and get so totally spoilt.

You deserve it.

You really do.

Today I will be celebrating my Mum with an afternoon tea at my sisters.

This will be lovely; I love buying presents.

What are you doing to celebrate with your Mum, I would love to know?

Mother’s Day for me is difficult, yes, I admit I do find it difficult.

You see I did not have the opportunity to become a Mum.

Insert vulnerable post here.

When I was younger my dream was to be a Mum.

It was all that I ever wanted, was to be a Mum.

It was my dream to have children.

When I was a young child, I imagined while holding my doll, that I was their Mum. I imagined being a Mum.

Even though I am not a Mum I am very grateful that I am an Aunty.

I love that I am an Aunty.

I have 3 beautiful nieces and a nephew.

As an Aunty I get to love on them and invest in them.

I love having them over, I love creating memories with them.

Being an Aunty is so important to me.

I am grateful that I am an Aunty.

There is something about being an Aunty, there really is.

I pray for anyone who is not a Mum on this day.

I pray for anyone who is feeling lost today.

I pray for anyone who finds this day difficult.

Beautiful one

Know that you are worthy, valued and loved.