Daily Reading

You’ve kept track of my wandering and my weeping.

You’ve stored my many tears in your bottle-not one will be lost.

You care about me every time I’ve cried.

For it is all recorded in your book of remembrance.

Psalm 56:8 (from the Passion Translation)

Daily Devotional

I love this scripture it reminds me that even in my darkest time that He sees me, He sees every tear that I cry. I love how He says He cares about me every time I’ve cried. That is every time I have cried.

It makes me think of a beautifully designed jar with our name written in an amazing personalised font. Also written on it are the dates of every day we have ever cried.

He has our tears stored up. He reassures us that not one will be lost.

It’s a comforting scripture when you are going through a difficult journey or season.

Read it again and remind yourself that you are important.

I remember when I was journeying through a difficult season, I said to a friend “Really he stores up our tears in a bottle I think that he is going to need something a bit bigger for how I have been crying.”

We actually laughed at that through our tears.

There is nothing wrong with crying we all need a good cry and that is okay.

We may be working our way through grief of a loved one.

We may be waiting for prayers to be answered.

We may just feel lost at the moment.

We may feel disappointed.

We may feel that we have lost something.

You can only be strong for so long, when you are going through those difficult times-

Look after yourself when you are feeling sad-

• Do something nice for yourself.
• Light a candle with a beautiful fragrance.
• Watch a comedy movie.
• Have your hair done.
• Hang out with people that can encourage you.
• Make yourself a nice hot drink of coffee or tea or hot chocolate.
• Have your nails done.
• Listen to music.
• Pray, write out your prayers.

You will get through this.

I am always reminded of Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

This is my prayer for you.

Be encouraged.

The last few weeks have been incredibly busy.

My life is full at the moment. I love what I am able to do.

I also am grateful that there is one more week to go before the school holidays.

I am looking forward to some time off.

This week I am so grateful for friends that can speak into my life.

Journeying with others is so important.

On Tuesday night I met with a great friend and mentor. I love catching up with her and I love that I can just chat to her about life. I love her wisdom her guidance and our friendship. I was really tired that whole day and thought about staying home but I pushed through how I was feeling and went out. The decision was definitely worth it.

Sometimes we have to push ourselves out of our comfort zones for things to change.

We need to have faith and step out.

As difficult as it is sometimes we have to be brave.

Thursday I also caught up with someone that is a mentor for my work as a Chaplain. I hadn’t seen him since last year so there was much to catch up on.

He also suggested, mentioned about rest and creativity.

I know that this week I have had to guard my heart.

I know that because I am feeling tired, I am more emotionally. I find myself vulnerable.

I want to be moved by life, but I never want my heart to be a rock and not feel.

My Prayer-Today I will surrender my heart to Him and let him protect it. I will let Him fill it with His love.

Do you have a mentor?

Is there someone that you can sit and talk too?

Is there someone that you can just be yourself with?

Do you have someone that can speak into your life?

Do you have someone that can encourage you?

Who are you journeying with?

Write out the prayer above and place it somewhere to remind you.

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Psalm 147:3

I love the comforting words of this scripture.

Today I am wondering-

• Is your heart heavy?
• Are you going through something that you think no one would understand?
• Do you feel as though some days that the wind has been knocked out of you?
• Do you find yourself struggling to breathe?
• Do you feel that no one would understand what you are going through?
• Do you have a hole of regret in your heart?

Is your heart broken?

This is my thought for today.

My prayer for you-

Pray for God to heal your heart, rest in his peace and let him guide you.

If you need to talk to someone seek help.

Phone a support line.

Don`t be alone in your struggle.

Romans 8:28 says -And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God to those who are called according to His purpose.

He will work things together for good.

Write out these scripture place them somewhere in your house, write them on a mirror, speak them out over your life.

Trust Him.

Believe Him.

Beautiful one your heart will be whole again.

 

 

 

Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

John 14:27

I love this scripture and how it can comfort you when your heart is troubled.

As research for the book I am writing about my journey I have come across some workbooks. These have been quite difficult to read, I need to remember how far I have come. I need to remind myself that I am not that girl anymore.

In that season of my life anxiety, worry and confusion ruled my life.

Have you ever done something that troubled you and you later regretted it?

Have you ever said something to someone and then later thought about the conversation and wanted to rewind the whole thing? Or maybe you wanted to think that it never happened?

Have you ever become so angry with someone and said what you really thought about them?

Have you ever done something that has challenged your faith journey?

Every now and then anxiety wants to make a comeback, into our lives.

It wants to take away everything that you have built up.

But how do you battle the thoughts that say you are not good enough, you are not worthy and that you have ruined your life?

Pretty heavy stuff.

I know that as women we can become consumed about the negative and forget about the good that we have done.

This is when we lose our peace. This is when we think that we need to do something to make up for our moment or we need to punish ourselves by not eating, or not enjoying life.

But when we read God’s word he says let not your heart be troubled.

He also says neither let your heart be afraid.

He has already forgiven us.

He wants us to have his peace, we just need to receive it.

We need to know that he has plans for our lives and what we have gone through may help others.

Today don’t be hard on yourself forgive yourself.

Write out your prayer to God.

Pray to Him for peace in your life today.

Find your peace today.

I love how when you read scripture, that sometimes verses just leap from the page as to get your attention.

They seem to be saying this is what you need today for your daily walk.

Proverbs 3:5-6 was one of those verses to me.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And he will direct your paths.

What stands out to me is Trust Him, Trust Him with what you are going through today. I love that he will direct your paths. He will be your guide.

When I was going through my journey and those many days in hospital I was comforted by the word.

I would write up scripture and place it around the room and declare it over my life.

There were many times when I cried out to God and said Lord you did it for them pointing to a person in the bible. I pray that you will do it for me.

When you are wanting to change from a very negative thinking pattern that is so ingrained in your thinking, you need to gain a new perspective on things.

It is like rewiring your brain.

Worry consumed me.

What ifs… was my everyday go to. It was always what if’s to the negative side.

Changing how you think is a huge journey in itself.

When you are struggling cling to the words that can transform, lives that can change lives, that can give you a beautiful future.

Today write out a scripture that speaks to you and place it somewhere and speak it out over your life.

Will share more soon.

Hello beautiful one,

I am trying something new, videoing about recovery. Let me know how you are going.

Trying new things,feeling very vulnerable.

Love to hear from you.

 

 

 

Have you ever had that moment when you have said the words, heard what you have said, wondered if they actually came out of your mouth and then realised at that moment you are capable of standing up for yourself?

Well this happened to me the other day.

If you know me when I do become upset about something I do like to process it and try and deal with the situation resulting in a win, win situation.

I am passionate about standing up for injustice.

Well last Tuesday I do not know what overcame me.

The day started out so well, I went to work and then I finally made it to boxing which I have missed. I had made a commitment to attend boxing twice a week.

I was driving home from boxing and was feeling amazing. I had stopped at an intersection and was waiting to turn left.  I couldn’t go the intersection was busy then it happened the person behind me drove into the back of my car.

At first I couldn’t believe it, I looked in the rear view mirror, I flung the door open, I flew out of the car and I said to the person who had run into me “You just drove into me”.

There was no fear; I had not accessed the situation I didn’t know if the other person was going to be aggressive or anything. All rational thoughts had left me.

The person just sat in their car and said to me “I thought you were going”.

I replied “Well I didn’t”.

The other person got out of their car and I asked if they could give me their details. The other person said that they didn’t have a license it was stolen and that their car was not insured. I received their details and I said “So if I phone this number will your phone ring” they said “Yes”. While I am saying this I am pointing at the person’s phone.

They said again I thought you were going. I said back but I didn’t and you should leave a gap between cars.

As I was saying all these things and giving this person a lesson in road rules (mmh) I just had no fear at all.

I got back into my car and a car next to me let me in and I went home.

I was okay and there wasn’t that much damage to my car, so I was physically okay.

When I arrived home I was upset a bit but then I just thought that no weapon formed against me will prosper.

After all it was only a car, I wasn’t really hurt.

I think that I had shocked myself because I had blurted out words without caring about the other person and how they were feeling.

Sometimes when you do bottle up your feelings it can only take one little incident and you find yourself becoming like a volcano.

I think it is important that you are not hard on yourself.  That sometimes these things will happen.

Words are powerful.

Will share more soon.