I am passionate this year about writing my book on recovery from an eating disorder.
When I was struggling with the eating disorder I found it really difficult to find the help that I needed. I found it difficult to ask for help as well.
I know that when I needed help I was not thinking clearly and so my judgement was not the best.
I remember my first admission I had been referred by my local GP to a Doctor that I had not met. I was okay with that at the time because I wanted to help.
This also happened on my second admission because I was so unwell that I really didn’t get the opportunity to talk to the Doctor before I had met him. So I was discharged from hospital and I was still struggling, my weight had been restored but my change of thinking was still the same.
I wasn’t really coping at all being at home, I had really bad anxiety. I ended up going back to my local GP who was just amazing.
I sat in her office and she said to me that there were two Doctors that she could try.
My GP called both of the Doctors and left a message with their assistants and she said to me whichever one phones back first you will just have to go with them. She could see that I did need to go back into hospital.
Now I had heard of one of the Doctor’s, from some of the girls that I was in hospital with and I had really hoped that he would be the one to call back.
My GP suggested going over to the shops across the road from the Doctors Clinic and to come back in a little while.
I remember this day so clearly. I remember walking across the road praying crying out to God in desperation that I would get the Doctor that I needed. I remember praying that Doctor ______________, would call back.
After sometime at the shops I walked back to the Doctors Clinic and sat in the waiting room.
My GP came out to get me and I sat in her office.
She said to me that Doctor ______________ the one that I had prayed for had called back and that I had an appointment the next day at 9am.
Oh my gosh!
I knew that this was an answer to prayer a miracle really, because this Doctor had a 3 month waiting list and his books had been closed.
I had an appointment the next day at 9am.
I went to my appointment the next day and he asked me if I needed to go back into hospital and I said YES.
He was just lovely and did things a bit differently.
I remember him saying to me, “I won’t get everything right but I will do my best for you”.
And so the journey back to health continued.
I am grateful for every Doctor that helped me in my journey I have learnt a lot from them and most of all they were part of the team that kept me alive.
I am especially grateful to have had Doctor_____________, he saw me, he saw my potential and he did not see me as just an eating disorder.
Will share more soon.